Frank

• Frank Sinatra
• The library
• Editing

I don't know what it is about this combination, but it made for a great early evening. I didn't know how much I could enjoy editing. 

Strange Dreams

I don't usually remember my dreams; however, perhaps because lots of work has led to little sleep, I woke remembering my dreams:

I was startled by my alarm for work and sad I was no longer chasing beavers around our house. Apparently, one sprinkler in our yard caused the front yard to turn into a lake that reached as high as our front step. I ran to my sisters blue room to tell her about the creatures in our front yard and wanted help identifying them. I still don't know what creatures they were, but my best guess is two cute beavers. Perhaps, it a reflection of reading Narnia before falling asleep. The beavers after all were friendly... Well back to my running to the blue room. Instead of Kristi I found my coworker housekeeper who I use to practice speaking spanish with. I don't know where that came from since I never see him anymore since we work days and the other nights. Maybe it was the blue in the room because that's the housekeeping uniform. Now I think I am trying to make sense of my nonsensical dream. But if you are reading this, you better take care of your sprinklers before strange events take place.

Although my other dream is somewhat hazy this is the highlight:

• I was trying on wedding dresses in the relief society room so then I could then dance hip hop. Who would have known those two go together. I even had 100's of people join me as we all then started dancing throughout the building. Interesting.

That's about all I remember of that dream actually. Well here's to some more crazy dreams. Goodnight

I have learned a lot about myself lately. The hard to hear as well as the good. People have been really inspiring to me.
These have been some methods of inspiration:

• nienie dialogue
• Mindy Gledhill
• a 14-year old concert violinist I heard on radio
• Amanda who in her cute sunshine yellow sweater talked on gratitude today in church
• My cute family (kind of lifetime inspiration)
• mothers who do the best they can

From this I have realized that the statement from Mindy Gledhill, "It's all about your heart" is true.  I have found my heart makes all the difference in my daily focus. It has come to mean to me to show love, to love life, and to make the most of the moment now.

My heart was quite angry this week. I worked a lot this week because there are a lot of sick babies in the nursery right now. I really loved working, until I came across a mother who I felt was far below what her baby deserved. I was angry at her and that may have also influenced her in how she treated me as well. I didn't look forward to having to see her again. I learned a great lesson though. There was moment in our conversation that changed my mood and feelings. I realized although we definitely didn't see eye to eye that I didn't know her. Her background, family life, heartaches, education and so many things have made her who she is. I judged her from our first negative interaction. I realized how grateful I am for all those who have made me who I am today, which is probably you if you are reading this. I have been blessed with so much.
I am grateful for:

• my mom- my inspiration
• my dad- my other inspiration
• my cute sister and cousins I spent a weekend in Provo on vacation with
• my cute childhood friends and the lunch date and sewing party we had this week together
• my ever-faithful roommate Katherine and my friend Jason who are always there when I need them
• the beautiful world around me
• beautiful weather
• my sisters, brothers, nieces although they are far away
• my Jesus
• my health
• my education and opportunities to learn
• my grandma who is selfless and makes me smile
• my grandpa who is fun and inspiring
• the little things: music, art, a note, a text, a smile
• church and all that incorporates

My heart is filled with gratitude for life